ok so i thought i would write abut my fav book n movie at the time TWILIGHT.ok so twilight is a book seris that was so popular they made it into a movie. the movie did so well they decided to do the second book, New Moon.
Well Im not gon tell the story but its basically about how 2ppl frm 2 different worlds find ♥ and maintain their ♥. The twist of the story is that he is a vampire lol. But the reason why I ♥ it so much (the book) is bc they ♥ each other so much. The vampire (edward) does so much for bella (the girl). He wants her to live a normal human life and doesnt want it to get interrupted bc he is a vampire. He doesnt want her to be anything but human. He evn leaves her bc he thinks this is the best thing for her. It kills him not 2b with her but he does wat he thinks is best for her survival.
♥ is a funny kind of theing you know. SOmetimes when you ♥ some1 you have 2 leave them alone so they can become the best person they can be. SO they can spread their wings. It kinda reminds me of that saying, "if you love something let it go...if it comes bakk their yours if they dont they never were." I think thats n awesome way to put it. Because if someone really ♥ you then it wouldnt matter if you have to leave for time then your ♥ shouldnt change. If they let you know y they were leaving and that they were going 2b faithful 2u etc....then they r urs.......I jus ♥ this story. hopefully ill be able 2 finish the saga n c wat happens........if your lookinf 4 a good book...sink ya teeth n2 this !!
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
ur like MY own special DRUG!
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
lessons in life
you already seen lesson 1: a nigga gon b a nigga. wrote about it n ready 2 move on 2 the nxt 1. Lesson #2: When you dont show them interest, they want you. When you do show them interest, they dont know who you are. Ok so I had this happen to me like mad times. A guy likes me n i really dnt wanna give them the time of day, but imma nice person n try 2b friends wit every1, so we talk wat eva wat eva n he starts sparking my interest a lil bit but wen i try 2 persue him he b on sum other shit. I mean damn nigga last wk u was blowing my phone up, this wk u cant even return a text message. damn......this is wat i hate. What changed so much that made u not like me like that no more. c i have standards n i dnt fukk around.
Then we have the last lesson b4 i go 2 sleep........Lesson #3: Why do men always think you don't know what they up 2? Ok so lets think about it (im bout 2 spill sum beans lol).......im a single woman n i have "options" right. Now I have 2 sort through all my "options" to find my "potentials". now the difference between n option and a potential is this, option ijus met n feeling out. Potential, I know n I might want you to b the "priority." Ok so me personally i usually have 1 or 2 "potentials" now I have something else i like 2 call the "go2 guy" This is the guy that I know only wants sex from, point blank period, so i keep him around for when i jus want sex lol. Its not a hard formula. Now guys come at you this way and that way, and I have said b4 im usually pretty good at feeling a guy out. Now if you make it 2 potentila status i like u a lil bit, but what guys fail 2 realize if you want sex frm me n i dnt cut u off n still talk 2 u now n then, guess what I just want sex frm u. Now this aint on no ho shit....no, no,no this is on sum my potentials didnt work out so im not gon have sex 4 a min but hey i did 4get about the 1 friend i got....text....n u kno wat happens after that. Like i tell my friends (n my potentials lol) u ALWAYS HAVE 2 HAVE A BAKK UP PLAN! n thats words 2 live by lol
Friday, March 20, 2009
not lookin
They say that if you want 2 find a significant other that u must not look 4 1, that u r suppose 2 keep urself busy. THIS is very hard 2 do. I must admit that yes I am looking, but i must admit that this is a hard thing 2 do. I mean 4 one I am a picky individual. I have even ben told that i am high maitenince. I do not agree. I just really believen chivlry n that a man is suppose 2 pick u up n pay 4 shit. I believe n the whole open the doors and all that good stuff. I mean im not a gold digger bc I dnt want u payin 4 me 2 live but if we go on a date y cant u pay 10 for a damn movie ticket? but yea ne way I am picky. I do not give everyone my number bc if u look crazy u probably r lol. N then if i do give u my number n u gotta b careful wat u say boo bc im the type of bitch that will cut u off 4 sayin 1 wrong thing. I kno thats crazy but i am a psychology major n i feel that i analyze ppl n if u do not pass the analysis then u r not the 1 for me! But on the other hand I do want somebody 2 fill this void I have. I want some1 i can introduce 2 the fam n the cheetah girls n someone i can laugh with n talk 2. SOmeone I can introduce my daughter 2 n go on dates n make me as hapy as i make them. A prince charming, n no they do not have 2 b perfect bc NO ONE n this world is perfect but mayb they can b the perfect person 4 me.........mayb God created them jus 4 me, n me jus 4 them. Maybe we were meant 2 b 2gether! Iono i jus feel a certian kinda way about the ppl that I meet n that do try 2 take it there with me. I feel like 95 percent of guys lie or cheat n there is only that small 5 percent that dnt, but of that 5 percent 3 percent are taken. So that leaves us single girls with a small 2 percent, then u have 2 think about it there is a biger percent of girls n this world then there r guys......so u c y i have given up on luv? See y i say imma b single 4eva? Its bc i only have a small 2 percent of the male speices 2 compete for n me i am not 1 to compete. Dnt get it twisted wen i do go out i do look fly, but im not the girl thats gonna cum up 2 u n b like "i saw u lookin at me frm across the rm." N y do u ask do i not do that bc again i believe n chivlry n if a guy thinks im attractive n steps 2 me correct guess wat? he will walk away with a name n seven digits lol.
I just think that i will b wasting my time if i approach a guy, its weird 2 me. I can c u everyday doing the same thing n feel like u r the best lookin nigga i have ever seen. u can give me the cum hither look n guess wat i will smile at u n talk about u 2 my friends but I WILL not cum hother n ask 4 ur number. Mayb it stems frm me being shy? iono but the only person Ihave EVER approached n my life was the father of my child n u see eventually that did not work out. So i figure that maybe me approachin a man is not a good look! lol yea but ne way outtie lol
Thursday, March 19, 2009
luv is soooo very funny
I wonder how does it feel 2 literally break someones heart? How do you feel in the end wen u get off the phone with the person you have dated for more then a yr n tell them "its ova." Do u cry, do u call ya other chick? Do you plan the wk end or nxt day out? I mean wen eva I broken up wit someone I usually sit n the house 4 awile bc I feel wrong n it really hurts me. Wen u stop being in luv with someone who still has feelings for u how does it feel? Do u wake up 1 day n think "damn Jakia just aint touchin my heart the way i used to?" I sometimes think about my x wen I talk about this bc even after we were broken up would spend the night at his house, did he wake up n the middle of the night n look at me like "why is this bitch still at my house?" Did he want 2 other girls n i was blocking? n there i was sound asleep thiking that this man still loved me and wanted to be wit me. Thats y luv is soooo funny. One day ur happy n planning to do things n go places n the nxt day u cant even stand to look or even talk 2 each other. Why waste time with luv I want 2 say. But then I think of the beautiful times that love allowed for me to have. The trips to the beach at night watching the water n listening 2 the waves. We would hold hands with the radio on and jus chill not b sexual at all! We would jus enjoy each others company. Or even after sex u would go n get my glass of water (lmao) n then u would get n bed n bring me closer n we would cuddle until i feel asleep. I remember times wen i would have a bad dream n u would bring me closer 2 u n tell me that everything was ok n that u had me n that u would nvr let nething or ne 1 hurt me, but i guess u didnt include ur self n that statement! Well, these r times that I love luv 4. the sweetness, the sugar, the smile, n the cuddle. I luv luv 4 all of that but i hate it 4 everything after that. I guess i have a luv hate relationship with luv. maybe the only thing 2 do is 2 fall bakk n luv so i can have better times!
Sunday, March 15, 2009
something 4 me....
Sometimes in life you have to encourage yourself. You have to be your own inspiration. Well, for me I fell lucky, I have a beautiful baby girl that inspires me and makes me feel like I have to be better.But sometimes in life we forget wat we have and the we sometimes lose the will to put up the fight. I feel like I lost that. Not in my career or with school but with luv. I feel like I let someone hurt me soooo bad and put me through sooooo much pain that I just sat bakk and was like fuck it, I dont need love. I dont need a man in my life again ever. For the past year and change I have been telling my friends and even my family that I'm going to be single forever. I felt like I would never be a happily married woman. And no it was not because I think I would be a bad wife, because believe or not at the young age of 23 I act more like a wife (even though I have a man nor a ring lol) then actual married woman act.
I mean on sum straight G shit all I do is work, go to school, and take care of my daughter during the week days. Yes, I do have friends but not that many and they do come over from time to time. But usually we watch movies n drink wine. Sometime we smoke, but thats all we do. On sum real shit we do gf things without realizing it. Wen we do go out on the wk end we usually leave the club early LMAO. I mean really this is us and wat we do and we have fun doing things OUR way bc we have fun.
Yea but basically, I have given up on luv and even relationships in general.......I even was ok with the fact of not having sex again. LOL I know it sounds really weird and strange, but let me explain something to you. I am a weirdo..point blank. I am a dork, nerd, wat eva you want to call me. I accept that bc I know its true. Because of my weirdness I am very upfront and honest with myself and others. I feel like I shouldn't be having casual sex. That was for my younger years and I didnt really do it then so I WON'T be doing it now. So if i feel like I'm going to be single forever that means I will be sexless forever....get the picture? lol, but you know today I realized something, believe it or not in church, me believing that God wants me to be alone for the rest of my life cannot be true. Maybe I'm single because I believe I will be single. I mean you know how people percieve wat you let them see about you....well maybe wen people look at me (whether they find me attractive or not) they see a girl who maybe in a relationship...or a girl that is not really to friendly (im told i look mean if im by myself LMAO) or a girl who is just not approachable.
Well, I feel like so many good things have happened to me in the past few days that maybe I am changing. Now I'm not saying that the nxt person I talk to will be the love of my life or even a love of mine at all, but he will help to build a bridge for me. He will help to open the doors that I have under lock and key. And I know that he will help the next brother out in moving past the shit that I got blocking my heart. And if he is the one that I do fall in love with.....i know that we have some good times ahead of us and maybe even some bad times. But I will cherish the good that we will have because I have been through alot of pain. So sir whoever you are I want to thank you in advance for helping me out. I am a lil shy, and it is hard for me to trust guys, but once you have my love and my trust.......I will honor and cherish you.....and like I said I'm a good gf (wifey type u feel me LOL) as long as you are a good bf, but wat ever you give me expect to get the same and return. O yes I must point out that this is not to any specific guy that I know I am talkin n general so dont get NE ideas behind this LOL....unless u want me 2 b ur wifey LMAO....and like the pastor told the church 2day......the season is ending and another 1 is beginning..........."summer is ova" (nakia's quote! thanks boo)
Saturday, March 14, 2009
sitting here thinking
about the past. You know the past is a crazy thing. Even though there maybe many things in the past that we may regret EVERYTHING, and I do mean everything ladies n gentlemen, makes us who we are. Now in my case there are things about myself that I hate. I blame the past for these things. Like, for instance, it is very hard for me to trust what guys say out their mouth. I mean I really want to, but my ex hurt me so bad that he basically ruined it for every other person I try to get with, or even try and get with me. Its crazy how that works. Now I'm sitting here thinking that every guy that I ever talk to will be a liar and cheater because I had bad experiences. The past is what makes us and shapes us. Even though there are things I hate there are also things I love. I love the fact that I have very high standards for people I date. I am a strong believer in chivlry and jsut being sweet. I do thank my ex for that because regardless of the situation he usually was a gentlemen.
I mean I'm like most girls. I love love point blank. I love being in love and having that significant other to count on and trust in. It's just really hard to find a person that is on the same level as you are. I really truely believe that there is smebody out there for everybody, but maybe God forgot to make my special somebody. Maybe I'm destined to be a single woman forever. Maybe i should be with my daughter forever just us two until she finds her husband. Then I will get a dog lol to take care of and occupy my time.
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
hEartLeSs
let me introduce u 2 me.......
